She is not going to take it sitting down.
Nor she is going to bury her head under her pillow and weary herself out by crying bitterly.
She is not shutting her pain down because she is a masochist, but because she has faith of a greater joy that will come after the pain and she wishes to appreciate and enjoy it for all it will be. She vows to make herself happier without you.
She will make the hole in her heart a start to make and do something good. No, better. And be better than ever before. And no, she will not do it with the hope of getting you back or making you fall in love with her again or more. But she will do it for the person who does not like to be stuck in the same place where you left her -- shattered and lonely.
She will live with the brokenness and slowly put herself back into place because it will help her lift others and be a testimony they too could make themselves whole again and be a better version of themselves. You only broke her heart. Never her spirit.
She may be lonely because she will miss the familiarity of you -- wit, sarcasm, lengthy conversations -- but that will not make her retreat into the dark corners of her room and drown in sorrow. That will make her seek out her friends and see the world and meet people instead. Perhaps, by leaving her, others will thank you for blessing and gracing them of/with her company.
For some reason, brokenhearted people develop eating problems. Either they binge, or they do not want to eat. She did the latter once before. But she vows that no matter how small the bites she will take and how long it will take her to bite and chew and swallow her food, she promises not to skip any meal. She swears to stay healthier and sexier than ever, for herself and for the next person who will take your place.
No, you will not hear her nagging or call you incessantly or stalk you. You never had her doing that before when you were, she sees no point of doing it now that you are over. You will not find her chasing you around. If there's one more thing she learns so well, it's to respect herself more.
She is not going to bitch you about it--whatever your reason/s for leaving her -- because that will be giving you the reason to believe you were right to leave her after all. She intends to prove you wrong and you will know about it - the woman she will become. But don't worry, she will not gloat. She will be gracious to wish you happiness still.
Remember this day that you give her up. You will realize, when you look back, she is, and always will be, the one that got away.
Note: Someone breaking up with you is not the end of the road. It's just a detour. Chin up. Be happy because you deserve it. Rock on, babes!
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