The Heels To Boot

The latter part of 2014 I found myself thrown "out of balance", overwhelmed with emotions and caught by surprises I did know how to handle. With all of that, I made decisions in confusion and I was sure I hurt and pushed away some people in the process, and knowing that I did so, made it more painful and dragging. However, like everything else, a decision had to be made to get myself to dance to a different tune. So I limited my grieving process ( that's how I label it when I found myself at a loss, because a part of myself died) until the end of 2014. Fortunately, celebrating the holidays got me in the mood. I mean, who in the world wanted to be sad on Christmas? No, not me, Jose. It's my favorite time of the year. In every way it was good. I was able to make amends before the year ended and started 2015 in a clean slate, with goals clearly defined. Through the excruciating process of losing and finding one's self, one thing never changed, to be always true to who I am. To celebrate and reassert my individuality and confidence, I felt the need to be in something that spoke "This is who I am", and I did it with my highed-heeled shoes while everyone else was wearing flats or in wedge heels at the church in the province. Ok fine, a vanity, but unarguably a statement piece. I stood and walked tall (literally and figuratively) in those heels and it set me apart, which I aimed to evoke when I wore them. What made it interesting, was that young ladies and women noticed, and based from their reactions, wearing those heels in the church in the province where folks dressed simply (well I dressed in blouse and jeans... the high-heeled shoes just made the difference), was not a bad thing. Hopefully, like what my wearing of the shoes signified, they would also affirm their own individuality. So yeah, I'm standing on solid ground with sturdy heels to boot and familiar ripped jeans to keep me company for 2015.


So here's the pair of heels. The cheaper kind. But I can dream of Prada, Jimmy Choo, or Louboutin. It's in the bucket list.